I like being alone, but I hate the feeling of being lonely. When you’re alone, you have time for yourself. Your thoughts finally catch up to you. You set your mind on things and everything is just clearer. Nothing’s bothering you and everything just feels right for once. When you feel lonely, you feel as if no one’s there for you. It feels like no one understands you or is willing to listen. It feels like you’re screaming in a crowded room, but yet not one person looks up.
The greatest thing to ever enter my life is doing everything she can to get out of it. I feel bad that she won’t be able to, because of my love for her. I wish I could just take her idea that was similar to Total Recall, and let her just see how I feel for her rather than have me and my stupidity mess up trying to show it myself. I’ll probably figure out the right thing to do after she’s already gone :/ but for the sake of my own life I hope not. I’ll never give up on her. It’s probably stupid because she is, but I don’t care. My love for her is becoming a curse.
Greek love is so much better than English. I don’t think I could lie in another language.